He knows…

This trip ended too soon. Oh, how I wish we could’ve stayed on extra day or two. Getting lost in the drowning sounds of the ocean was and always will relax me. Honestly it was the first time all year that I was at peace with all the craziness that’s been going on in my life. I did feel God speaking to me in the midst of my thoughts and feelings. I felt like my heart and soul was renewed. It’s amazing how getting away and taking in the beauty God’s creation can renew a person so much. Did the problems in my life go away? No. They are still present and few more things have been added to the craziness but despite it all I know and am reminded that God is my ever present in my troubles…He’s my refuge, my tower, my strength (Ps 46:1).

While on vacation I started thinking about people who blog really personal things…Do I feel comfortable sharing my deep personal feelings and wandering woes with the world? I think you really have to ask yourself why you would want to share that information. If it’s for pity or to feel better about yourself? I often think things are better left unsaid. I do think that if somehow it would beneficial to someone else and deeply was placed upon your heart to share that you should go for it. The testimonies of others has and will continue to deeply move people …to know that they know what you are going through. To pray for you and to not judge.

Too often I think people hide in fear of getting hurt. I would know, I’ve hidden… I’ve placed up walls. I’ve been hurt too many times to count and I don’t like the feeling, I fear it. I want nothing to do with it. So I tend to not want to get too personal with anyone anymore. There’s only so much a person can take. I have to ask myself, what’s God try to teach me though this. Perhaps someone else knowing this piece of information…having the same problems and issue will feel better knowing it’s not just them. I’ve learned and know in life we have to set ourselves up for disappointments.. people are human and will hurt us…the human race is mainly self centered and that’s why we need God so badly.

Jesus said, “But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.” (Luke 6:27-28 NIV) In the following verses Jesus gives several specific examples of how to treat those who have hurt you, and He concludes with, “Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.” (vs. 36 NIV).  I pray for Mercy. I pray for understanding. I pray for Peace. I pray for forgiveness of my short coming.  He knows exaclty how I feel. He came in flesh and blood on the cross to save us from our sins …He knows how much we hurt because He did too.

Funny this was going to be my vacation re-cap post but my mind wandered….