What I know now

April 29th, 2008

Though I have only experienced half the joy of becoming a mother ( 4 weeks to go), I thought I would share with you my journey so far.

The questions is “What Do I know Now?” so possibly something I wasn’t aware of before.

I know now how much of a journey from day one of conception to birth really is. It took its toll on me spiritually, physically, and mentally. I wouldn’t change it for anything. The throwing up for three months straight, the fatigue, the getting a lot bigger and not fitting into any clothes, the sleepless nights ( I’m sure I’ll be getting more of those), and everything being new. I was scared sure, I cried a lot, I worried, but then there were times where God assured me that he had my back and that everything would work out just fine. I guess any Mom worries about her baby, it’s only natural but knowing God was there for me has really been what’s pulled me through all these months of my little one growing inside.

I’ll never forget the first time I felt a fluttering of life inside of my stomach. No one can take that away from me ever. And from then on out, the punches and kicks haven’t been so pleasurable but my baby girl makes me laugh. She needs space, wants to come out and play and I really can’t wait to be able to hold her in my arms, to love her, to let her know no matter what that I am going to be here along the way to guide her as my mom guided me on my journey of life.

Becoming a mother starts before your child is ever conceived. Becoming a mother starts as soon as you are born, as soon as you watch and learn from your own mother. My Mom did a great job and I hope I do just as good. What a journey all women go on and each different in it’s own way. I say Mom’s should get a lot more credit!